Zoë’sPatriarchal Blessing – Her Personal Scripture

Last Sunday, my eldest daughter received her Patriarchal Blessing. It was a tremendously spiritually fulfilling and affirming experience. It allowed me to once again feel the power of Heavenly Father’s love for each of us as individual children of His. It was a testament to me that He truly has a specific plan for each of our lives and just how well He knows us and wants to bless us.

I was really proud of my daughter, Zoë, for all her preparations prior to receiving the blessing. She had fasted for the day and together we’d read and discussed some talks by General Authorities about Patriarchal Blessing. We discussed the Abrahamic Covenant and our rights and responsibilities as Covenant Israel. Even before we left for the Patriarch’s home, I felt overwhelmed with the Spirit. Just before we left, we knelt together and prayed. I was so choked up I could barely say what I wanted to say.

Once we arrived at the Patriarch’s home, we had a little chat before the ordinance. The Patriarch was a soft-spoken and kindly man. After making sure that Zoe understood everything, he proceeded with the blessing.

Ah! Words fail me. I could never do justice to the feelings and emotions coursing through me as he pronounced sacred and powerful blessings on that dear head. Try as I might, I couldn’t contain my emotions and I wept uncontrollably. The only thing that was vividly apparent to me was that God, our Father in Heaven lives and that He knows and loves this little child of mine with a love I could never fathom! And the whole time the Patriarch spoke, I felt that Spirit bear witness to its truthfulness.

The other beautiful (that word is such an understatement in this instance, but it’ll have to do) thing about her blessing was that all the specifics that she had fasted for were addressed and she received the very guidance she had  hoped to receive. Another witness that He hears and answers our prayers and fulfills the righteous desires of our hearts.

I am so blessed to have been a part of such a powerfully spiritual experience. I am so grateful for the magnificent Plan of Salvation. I delight in my Savior, Jesus Christ, through whom all these wonders are possible. In humblest reverence I offer my gratitude to Him for all that He has done for me, a sinner. I am so grateful for the eternal Priesthood and the authority and keys that have been restored to allow it’s rightful use. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.


I Got What I Wanted at General Conference

I usually go to General Conference with a question or a problem in mind. I also take my own notes, a lot of  notes. Not only do the notes help me to focus on all that I’ve heard and felt, they also serve as powerful memory tool for me.

I had been preparing for weeks what issue I was going to take with me this time. Sometimes there are several issues that need addressing, but this time, I felt that there was an over-arching theme that would put my other concerns to rest. And what is that issue,  I hear you ask? It is simply this: I have a really difficult time liking or loving myself enough to stop putting myself down. Don’t get me wrong. There are many things about myself that I love and cherish. I actually think it’s pretty awesome being me – most of the time. The trouble is, because of abuse throughout my life, I have ‘learned’ to put myself down as a safety mechanism to prevent others from doing it, sorta like ‘beating them to the punch’. I also know that it doesn’t work, but it’s just been how I’ve dealt with it. So, for this General Conference, I wanted to know how my Heavenly Father sees me, so that I can see myself through His eyes and truly embrace myself, no matter how broken I feel. I want to see myself through His eyes.

Imagine my utter breakdown as Sister Elaine S. Dalton, third speaker at the Saturday morning session, began her talk with the first portion of the oft repeated Young Women’s Theme ‘We are daughters of our Heavenly Father, who loves us, and we love Him.’ As she continued with a powerful talk about our identity and our divine parentage, I was filled with the Spirit and overcome with emotion. Most particularly, I was blown away by the statement:

She understood who she was and whose she was.

I am now determined to make that my personal motto until the truthfulness of it has sunk in. The entire talk, with a renewed call to virtue and her conviction in the scripture calling us to ‘Stand as witnesses of God at all times and in all things and in all places’ were the very things I needed to hear to bolster my own conviction in these beliefs.

I cannot think of a single talk at Conference that didn’t instill in me a desire to renew my efforts to become a righteous, productive and fulfilled daughter of God. But, it was Sister Dalton’a talk that reminded me that I am a daughter of God and that I matter. Her talk renewed the desire to ‘bloom where I am planted’.

I am ever so grateful to Sister Dalton for her powerful testimony, that through her, my petition for validation from my loving and eternal Father was answered.

As always, my experiences with this General Conference have instilled in me so much anticipation for the next Conference. It just keeps getting better and better!

I want to finish this post by adding my testimony to the many I have heard this weekend. I know that God, our Father in Heaven, lives. I know that His son, Jesus Christ, is my Living Redeemer. I know that the Savior’s miraculous and holy birth, His Atoning Sacrifice and His Resurrection are absolute truths. I know that I am theirs and that I am loved of them.  In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, Amen.